What college does to you

For the first time in my life, i am drinking a cup of coffee, not for its taste, but to help me work through this justice paper i have due before 5PM today. I know i should probably be doing this paper right now. But i have half a page left so I'm allowing myself to slack a little, get distracted for a bit. College. For the first time in my life, i am working on homework in the library because i cannot allow myself to not be distracted from the things that are in my dorm. College has certainly brought many firsts.

so the above was when i was crazily trying to finish my justice paper before it was due.

college is a new experience. it's hard to be so far away from everyone i love. it's hard to find people who are similar to me in college. i miss my ghetto oakland. i miss the ghetto jokes. i miss ghetto people. lol. i hate the cold weather. moving from oakland to new england is a big cultural change. honestly i am still trying to adapt. im trying to find a place where i can be myself and feel comfortable with the people around me. i cant deny the fact that at times it does happen, when everything feels fine. but there are moments when i look around me & i ask myself what i am doing here. i cant shake the feeling that maybe i just don't belong. yes. i love having the name of harvard on my back. being able to say i'm from one of the best schools in the world. but in the end, i just want to be at a place where i can truly enjoy myself. i guess i just wish there were more poeple like me here. but in the end, i just have to suck it up, because harvard is harvard, everyone here is different.