Ninety more days

It's been two weeks since i've moved on to campus. It feels like an eternity already. So much has already happened. So far college has been alright. I cant deny the fact that i feel as thought i did not pick the right college. everyone here is so serious, so smart, so unlike me. at least i have not found people who likes to get silly like me yet. but of course it's only been two weeks. i just keep thinking what it would have been like if i had went to berkeley. yes i would be close to home but at least i get to see everyone i love. eventually i think i will start to love harvard. but for now i can not help but feel as though i don't fit in somehow. everyone here is nice. i love my roommates. i love the people i've met. but it still does not feel right. i really miss my boyfriend! i miss him so fuckin much. i want him to be here with me. i know he'd take such good care of me. i miss panda who would be silly with me all the time. i miss my family! i miss my mom's wonderful soup! i cant wait till these ninety days pass & i get to go home & see everyone i miss. i miss sushi house too man. lmao. so i feel as though all my free time is consumed here. theres class in the mornins. then theres practice mornings & nights. yesterday was the game. i was freezing my ass off in that dumb dumb cold football field in my lil cheer outfit. sighh. if i had gone to cal there woulda been more skoo spirit. kinda wished that i went there now. i just think cal would have fit my personality better, even though harvard is a more prestigious school. i don't know if i made the right choice. with harvard, im hoping id get a nice future without much work. im hoping i can jus graduate & get recruited for a nice lil job, retire early. but i don't know if i would have as much fun in the process of college as every other college student should have. i wanted to blog more, but all my thoughts are escaping me rite now, more later i guess.