One week from now...

so in one week from now. i'll be on the plane, leaving oakland for boston. august 31st. i have mixed feelings about this upcoming flight. im so excited to meet new people and live out this dream of mine that i've had since i was in 5th grade. [it's always been my dream to get into harvard. just never thought that it'd happen.] on the other hand i am afraid. im frightened by the idea of moving to the other side of the country and leaving everything that i am so familiar with behind. i've had such a great summer and met so many new & fantastic people. it's hard to say goodbye. anyways, i've been really emotional lately. i think since the night of danny's party, i've cried at least once every day, if not more than once. lmao. i've never been THIS emotional. there are some people i havent seen in ages. im really happy that i saw my girls today. i honestly cannot wait to chill with them tomorrow. sometimes im afraid that im gona forget all that i have here in oakland. i love my family, panda & my boyfriend. these are the poeple i dont ever want to forget. i already have some ideas as to how im gona remind myself of all that i have here in oakland. i really hope it works out. it really scares me that im so focused on being into the moment. because at times i forget about the things that i do have. im afraid that when i go to harvard, im gona enjoy myself too much & forget home. i hope that never happens.

so last night me & danny kinda had some problems. he got me really pissed off when he kept me waiting for so long at the streetfest. & then later on at night he pissed me off because he wouldnt tell me what was on his mind even though it was so obvious he was bothered by something. then he told me what was wrong when i got really mad at him & stormed off. then we had a talk & we both got really emotional. he said some stuff that really touched my heart. im really glad that we can be so straight forward with each other. i do <3 him very much. =)